Today
I turned 24 and tomorrow I am on line to 25
It was early in the
morning that I realized it was my birthday. I looked at my watch, pealed my
eyes to gaze the date and it was 20/11/2019. I was born on this day to a
beautiful mother and handsome father who are a simple peasant family at Mongar
district. I am so much glad that I could make up to this point without any
hindrance and it’s all because of a holistic effort of my family including all
the cousins I have. I would not forget Triple Jem for showering continuous
blessings and prosperity to me and my family, indeed all the sentient beings of
the this very cyclic samsara.
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| Completion of 24 Age of life |
To this point, I looked
at my life and there was positive and negative things happening and I feel
inner engineering must be done within. Sometimes, I feel I am still young and
sometimes I feel like I am getting old. Somehow, in the mediocre, I also make
blunder in decision making. Still that indecisive infant, I feel! There were so
much of factors that trigger my life and in some ways; it helped me to
positively change myself forgetting its negative impacts.
Life spans of human
beings are decreasing, people who live 100 years are like a day star. People
are dying at 70s and 80s. 90s are also rare. Today, on the note that life is
impermanent, I feel that half of my life was finished because I may live up to
50s or 60s, not more than that. Sadly, if I scrutinize myself truly on the fact
that how much merit I have accumulated, it will be countable but demerits are
countless. I graduated my degree completing some subjects on Buddhist philosophy
but when it comes to implementing what I really know, it’s a hard thing for me.
Mind full of five
poisons, drinking the salty water of this worldly samsara, I am dragged in the
muddy world and I feel so melancholic about the kind of life that I am having. We
are guided, shown the path to ultimate happiness by great philosophers who
attained parinirvana like, Nagarjuna, Gyalsay Ngulchu Tokme, Gyalsay Zhiwalha
and all. They have shown all the ways to have a fruitful and meaningful life,
basically how to live a life, ways to accumulate merit without any affect to other
sentient beings but I miserably failed to implement it practically. It’s rotten
in the brain.
Today is yet another day
to remind myself that I have a got so many things to be get done. Tomorrow is
too far to dream, today is the right time to implement. I am just glad that I have
completed the twelve circles of zodiac sign (Birth sing) twice without any chaos.
Finally, as I get in line to 25 tomorrow, I hope everything will be fine and good.
Thanks
to everyone who made my day.
